I noticed that the Miller Bothers had 'Before The Morning' as a favorite song of theirs up on the main page. I ignored it for a couple months, and then listened to it. I had listened to it before, but I was bored, and I was browsing around Codebearers.com and I decided to play it. It was a cool music video, but I really didn't care a whole lot about it. That was around May, and had completely brushed the thought off until last Sunday. I was browsing the CD's in my house when I came to Josh Wilson's "Life Is Not A Snapshot" album. I flipped though the booklet that was in it, and saw a couple paragraphs after the song lyrics. This is what is said:
Before The Morning is a song about hope. It's inspired by my dear friends, Tim and Paula Beal. Five months into their pregnancy, Tim and Paula went to the doctor to find out if their baby was a boy or girl. The doctor told them he was a boy, and then went on to tell them there were only 2 valves in his heart (Instead of 4), and his kidneys and lungs were not functioning. He said that their only option was abortion. Because of the depth of his complicaitions, no doctor would touch Jayken because he would never survive the dialisis machine during heart surgery. The Beals were also told that due to the extent of the problems, the would soon be digging their way into a financial pit that would ruin their marrige.
Tim and Paula went home and prayed. They fasted. They asked everyone the knew to pray and fast with them. They knew they needed to trust in the Lord, because He was the One that "Knit me together in my mother's womb" (Psalm 139:13)
On January 11th, 2002, Jayken was born. The doctors said he had a 2% chance of living longer than four days. by the grace of God, Jayken is now seven years old. After three heart surgeries, many sleepless nights, and countless finacial struggles, the Beals are still believing a day at a time in a Savior who won't let go. They are learning what it means to "Trust the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding" (Proverbs 3:5)
Tim told me that, "The odds have never been in Jayken's favor, but God is so faithful." The Beals are living proof that no matter what are circumstances are, God can work anything out for our good and His glory.
This album is entitled "Life Is Not A Snapshot." If you took a snapshot of a particular moment in the Beal's life, it might look like there isn't a lot of hope for them. But sickness and struggles are not the end of the story for those who know Jesus. We believe in a God who saves. We believe in a God who heals. At the end of every e-mail I recieve from Tim, he writes "Fighting the fight until I see His face"
We believe in the bigger picture.
No matter what you may be struggling with, know that, "The sufferings of this present time are not worthy to be compared with the glory that is to be revealed to us." (Romans 8:18) Our pain and struggles are very real, but they are only the dark before the morning.
"Before the Morning" Is for Jayken David Beal. His name means, "Victory through grace for God's beloved."
I hope this blesses you.