I'm looking through the old Yearbooks again.  Back when we were in Elementary School, when we thought the 8th graders were so big, while the High Schoolers just ignored us.  Now were are in High School, and College doesn't seem so far away now.  Looking back on memories, where signatures bring up faces in my mind.  Looking back, with some regret, at what was said and done, and what was not.  As we grow in height, we grow in knowledge, maturity, friendships, and insight. This is made clearer to me every day, and often I find myself trying to forgive my younger self for her mistakes.

          As the pages flip by, filled with memories of the past, and dreams that wouldn't last, I am grateful for my friends who loved me all the way, even if they didn't know it yet.  And I loved them, though I denied it; the "tough girl" inside of me was quite reclusive and annoying.  But now I'm past that, and I know that there is Hope for the woman in the future that I often wonder about.

          What will she look like?  Where will she be?  What friends will stay, and who will move on?  What will she do?  Will her dreams come true?  Will I be ashamed of her, or will I run to embrace her?  I question myself until a though quiets my searching heart.  The Lord is the Master of all my Life, of all my Time; past, present, and future.  He and He alone can still the regrets, temptations, and questions raging across my mind.  In Christ my Savior alone I will fully trust.

          I have changed, as we all have to some degree.  But this world is but and illusion, but a dream, but a glimpse of the so much more beyond.  Will the memories encased in pictures, my little mistakes, the times I refused to hug someone back, matter in Eternity?  I think not.  Will this world fade away, and with it all my earthly possessions and dreams?  Probably.  But will the friendships I've built, and the people I've helped and loved matter into Eternity?  I think so.

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Comment by Misty Illusion on June 10, 2016 at 10:17am

:o  Sorry, Hope. :/ I don't even hardly remember Kindergarten.

I have been homeschooled my whole life, but the once-a-week program for homeschoolers my sis and I go to has a Yearbook class, so we all get student-made yearbooks at the end of the year.

Comment by Misty Illusion on June 10, 2016 at 8:50am

Okay, thanks Sabrina. I agree; I don't know if I'll get much taller, but I hope to grow in maturity.  I have heard that one's personality solidifies around the age of 22.

Comment by Hope on June 9, 2016 at 4:00pm
I only have a kindergarten yearbook xD I went through it once and it was like. "That kid hated me. So did that one. And that one. That kid hated me until they were lonely' I've got so many stories from three years of public school
Comment by Melody on June 9, 2016 at 1:04pm

XD lol fun with chores.

Anyways. This brings up some thoughts. I can't really agreed with much of  it because  I don't have yearbooks. Ya know being homeschool and all. Most pictures are on my mom's computer. ^·^ I have regrets and make mistakes. I know there's a path for me to walk I just have to take small steps and do my best to listen to God.  I doubt I'll change much, maybe I'll be a bit more outgoing and be stronger in my faith, but i really really doubt I'll get any more height or maturity. XD 

(My internet stopped working before i could post this last night and now i have more chores to go do, but I wanted to post this.)    

Comment by Misty Illusion on June 8, 2016 at 6:37pm

Okay, thanks. :)  Have fun with your chores! :P

Comment by Melody on June 8, 2016 at 6:09pm

OOOOoooooHHhhhhhh. Oki doki. I have to go do chores so I'll post what i think later.

Comment by Misty Illusion on June 8, 2016 at 6:03pm

Haha, because I wanted to know what people thought ofbit, especially if others could relate to what I wrote about.

Comment by Melody on June 8, 2016 at 5:51pm

Y u bump 2 main feed again?

Comment by Misty Illusion on June 8, 2016 at 5:47pm

Bumping for the main feed again! :)

Comment by DatGlutenFReeChef on June 8, 2016 at 9:58am

True, true.

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