"You won't understand your life, you won't see clearly what has happened to you or how to live forward from here, unless you see it as battle. A war against your heart." John Eldredge Waking the Dead
I know this is a battle. I know I was wounded. I know partly how. I want to know why was I wounded. How bad is my wound. When an I get up and fight again. I want to be the warrior princess. I want to be Titania. I want to be Maka. Tigress. Katniss. Cinder (in book 2). Rose. Twilight Sparkle. Pearl. Sailor Jupiter. Police Girl. Cure Moonlight. Cure Passion. Cure Ace. Cure Scarlet. The Pretear. Aranel.
My sword feels heavy. My steps are cumbersome. My armor is gone. I'm in rags. I fall down a lot when I try to walk. My weapon drags behind me. Hurts to breathe. To focus. To live.